Saturday, October 6, 2018
While I was growing up Betty was my best friend. I could tell her anything. My hopes, my dreams, my sarrows. Well what ever sarrows or dreams I had at 15. In the beginning she used to come up and spend the night on the weekends. I used to wait and count down the days to the weekend. She would come up on Friday nights after working all day at beachnut. Normally it would be really late but she always had KFC in hand. Saturday was so much fun, we would go shopping or we would go somewhere special. She was my escape for a long time. We went on some exciting trips, like to a Red sox game, the zoo, baseball hall of fame, Hershey park. We always had a blast. On one of the trips we were all waiting to be seated to eat and Betty goes have a look and keep in mind what you would might like to drink. Without skipping a beat Jeff says I'll have a Samuel Adams. Betty says that's fine just keep it in mind. My mom, grandfather and Jeff laughed so hard. We explained why Jeff would not be having a Samuel Adams. It was an ongoing joke for awhile. Then the excitement of teaching me how to drive came around. First time out, ocean state parking lot, and the dodge neon! I was so excited! So when she told me one foot on each peddle I didn't hesitate even though I knew that was so not right. I was behind the wheel in an empty parking lot. She could have told me dragons existed and I would have believed her. I think she felt all my excitement and it made her nervous because half a lap and "good job, great job we should be getting back." When Papa moved to Fort plain not much changed. Pretty much every weekend she would come down and pick us up, we would spend the whole weekend. Just hang out and go for walks. Go in the hot tub and the pool. Just a little mini get away. It was like my safe haven. Only the people who needed to know where I was knew. I guess that's why I liked it there so much it was my little sanctuary. A couple years past i got my license and went to visit every so often, I grew up life happened as we say. When brentley was born we all made more of an effort to go see her and my grandfather. Seeing him lit up her life. She always was excited to see him and get pictures. I started emailing her and talking to her more, about my hopes, my dreams and my sarrows. One of the last emails I received she told me... she said Elizabeth I have watched you grow up into a beautiful women. The things you need or want answers to I have none. You are smart follow your heart until it's about to get you into trouble then let your brain take over. You have a beautiful son who is as strong and determined as you are. He is healthy and thriving that means your doing it right. Even when you feel it's going all wrong. When you need support you have a strong family. You will fall, that's OK because you will get back up and I know you will learn, take what you need from each situation. Hope to hear from you soon love Betty.
I never responded because life happened and I didn't know what to say. I do now. Betty,
You have one of the biggest hearts I know, always giving all of you. Sometimes no matter how much it stretched you thin. Every memory and thought of you has been happy and or fun. Thank you for teaching me a skill I will have the rest of my life. Thank you for always being there, even in the background. Thank you for always giving me a place to relax and just be. I will forever remember to pick the gray horse for you. I think you said for some reason they run faster. Seems logical. I love you very much. Thank you for everything you didn't have to do and everything you didn't have to be.